Cheater cheater pumpkin eater!

Cheaters….

That’s such a dirty word? I think we can all agree that being cheated on is the worst. Thank god my current boy friend hasn’t cheated on me (if he did he’s gonna see the bitch… And no one likes the bitch!)  But recently none of my best friends was cheated on. The relationship was new so its not THAT big of a deal, but its still some what important and really hurtful.

To girls(or guys. Just change any thing to a male form) who have been cheated on: girls, I know how it feels to be cheated on. The questions: why am I not good enough?  Why cant they be faithful to me? Am I not worth it? Did I do something wrong?  Each of those questions run through your head at least half a dozen times. The truth is, usually you only made one mistake.nyoundated a douche bag. I know someone’s going to read this and think “not my boyfriend, he was good to me.. He’s a good person. Its the other persons fault”
Ladies, I’m a very honest person. YOU DATED A DOUCHE.  It can hurt now (and potentially cause long term trust issues) but it gets better later. Time does heal things. Slowly but it does. You have to go on with YOUR life. Ggo out with some friends, meet new people, have a few drinks (responsibly please, this includes being legal..) And just have fun. Its important to have a good cry. You can comment if you need someone to talk to. I’ve been cheated on before. I understand more than you may think.

To the cheaters or people thinking of cheating: DONT YOU DARE DO IT!!!! Is it worth that? Is the person you’re cheating or going to cheat on, are they really not worth your respect? Break up with them, divorce, or get out of the relationship. Really now.  Think of how hurt they could potentially be when they find out you cheated. The second you cross then line, not only do you become a liar, you ruin the relationship.
And yes actually, you will get caught. Lies have a way of becoming a huge problem. So does deceit. Its like garbage. It starts to stink.

Do you really want to throw away all you have tried to build with someone? Each second of your life you invested in this person? For someone you didn’t originally choose to be with? Really now?

Fatty? No. Flatty…

I started to work out recently. Of course, me being as tiny as I am, caused a couple friends to ask if I was anorexic and they should of known that the answer is no. Have you ever slid into skinnies and looked down. If you’re like me, your thighs and butt are a little bit on the thin side. I needed to change this.  I did some simple work out i found on pinterest, oh lord, I was sore for a couple days! My boyfriends already noticed my thighs are slightly larger and are more toned, as for my flat ass? Nothing. Guess ill have to keep working! 
This is my butt work out. I do it once every 3 days… I should do it more!

“Skinny girls look good in clothes, fit girls look good naked!” Pshhh I wish. Skinny girls don’t always look good I’m clothes because we don’t always fit!!!!

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Dog Treats

   I’ve got a chorki(chihuahua and yorki mix). His name is Brody (I’ll include a photo…later!!)
Well, Brody eats healthy things and THATS IT. No human food, nothing that I’m unsure about. I usually don’t let him have dog treats because of this reason, (paranoid, I know…) But today I made him some.

This is the recipe
Peanut butter dog treats

2 1/2 cups of flour
1 tsp of salt
1 jumbo egg
1/3  cup of water
1/4 cup of peanut butter

Bake at 350 for 30 minutes

Busy Week

This week has been so stressful.  Being constantly told im not good enough is causing me so much stress.
I wouldnt think that it would matter this much… But it does… So, I made a face scrub and mask. It was WONDERFUL. MY SKIN WAS SO SOFT AND OHHHH.

*EXFOLIATING SKIN SCRUB

4 tablespoons of granulated sugar
2 teaspoons of grapefruit juice
2 tablespoons of honey.
Mix everything
Wet your face with warm water and rub onto your face until sugar dissolves (this takes time)

* MOISTURIZING FACE MASK

1/2 CUP of greek yogurt
1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
3-5 tablespoons of flour
2tablespoons of peanut butter
(The flour isn’t necessary but thickened it up a bit for me)
Mix and apply to your face for 10 minutes and wash off

Busy Week

This week has been so stressful.  Being constantly told im not good enough is causing me so much stress.
I wouldnt think that it would matter this much… But it does… So, I made a face scrub and mask. It was WONDERFUL. MY SKIN WAS SO SOFT AND OHHHH.

*EXFOLIATING SKIN SCRUB

4 tablespoons of granulated sugar
2 teaspoons of grapefruit juice
2 tablespoons of honey.
Mix everything
Wet your face with warm water and rub onto your face until sugar dissolves (this takes time)

* MOISTURIZING FACE MASK

1/2 CUP of greek yogurt
1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
3-5 tablespoons of flour
2tablespoons of peanut butter
(The flour isn’t necessary but thickened it up a bit for me)
Mix and apply to your face for 10 minutes and wash off

Lost love

     Am I the only one who’s thought about how hard it would be to lose the person you love? Like being married, having children , and then all of a sudden the person you love is gone. You don’t hear their laugh, see their smile, and feeling them next to you as you fall asleep.

     Would time make  it easier? Would it be better to stay alone or see other people?

Mall Trolls.

  Have you ever seen that girl(or been her!) Who just goes to the mall with no make up, ratty hair, and like PJs on still? Not even a bra… Yeah, I understand the whole “I like looking natural” or the “bitch, got no make up on,still cute! Bra? Psssshh who needs one. My boobs aint saggin'”
   Please, for the love of god, there are better ways to do that. For instance, not wanting to wear make up? Wash your face. Brush your hair. WASH YOUR NASTY HAIR. no one wants to see/smell that.  Tie your hair up? It takes 5 minutes.
    Don’t even think about wearing a white tank top and no bra. There’s a difference between class and trash. If you want to be the mall troll,go for it! But Don’t even try to say that’s all you had that was clean! GIRL, PUT A BRA ON! Or a SWEATSHIRT, A BAGGY SWEATSHIRT.
That’s my opinion…  If I try to look nice for you, RETURN THE FAVOR.

I can’t. No, just no.

Lesson of the day, don’t be gross.  Embracing yourself and embarrassing are two COMPLETELY different things.

Perils of my morning.

     Last night Justin and I made plans to go on a lunch date. We wanted to make up and fix things between us. So we decided to go to a local restaurant near my house at 12. I woke up and I got ready like I do everyday, well most days.  I thought oh maybe I can look cute today. So I tried to get ready, but I couldn’t find what to wear, and my makeup did not work. My room was clean! Until I decided what to wear. I settled on just a tube top and some jean shorts with brown flip flops. My makeup was a whole different story. I just decided I wanted to be simple, girlish, and pretty. I wanted to do a little contouring around my eye and some on my cheekbones with a light pink lipstain, not to hard right?
  
    I started to do my eye makeup. I had covered up my under eye circles, and was ready to start with my eyeshadow. Everything went great with the eye shadow, then I moved on to my liner. I usually wear liquid, which is supposedly the hardest one to do, I really don’t think so though. I started to get frustrated with how about it looked. Basically it looked really bad. So I took it off…

      My hair was not going to be nice to me today, it refused to look silky and healthy like it usually does. Today was just not my day. My hair was out of control, and not looking good. Some people can work messy hair, I am obviously not one of them! With naturally straight hair, blow drying is the only thing I usually need to do.  Today was not the case. I needed to bring out the flatiron and some smoothing serum. It didn’t work,so I left it and went to lunch…

   Lunch was okay though, I’m not really that big of a fan of the restaurant. So it was okay, I would have preferred somewhere different though. when we started to talk things got weird. He started acting really weird. But then I realized  I had lettuce in my teeth. It was embarrassing!!! We worked things out I guess, which is good, but I’m still kind of upset over our fight. Sometimes he just doesn’t get it. I don’t just want him to always treat me like one of his friends, I’m his girlfriend too. (And a hot mess today…)
     

Puffy eyes and almost sleepless nights

   Last night sucked, Justin  and i fought till close to 6 in the morning. Needless to say, I cried. The whole time.
The one thing I can say I learned is never ever let yourself be walked on. I should know this by now, but when its someone you love, things are so much harder. Especially if its someone you’ve been with for over a year.
    People always say there are other fish in the sea, but what if, just for once, there are no other fish. What if Justin’s my ONE fish.  I know people doubt us, and sometimes I doubt too, but I think we can make it through everything. One big fight shouldn’t ruin everything right? I’ve really hurt him and sometimes I wonder, is he going to get tired of me? And leave me? 
  He’s going off to college next year, and I’m really worried. He’s just a year and nine months older than me… That doesn’t always matter right? Maybe he will be a good guy in college and not mess around with other girls.  Maybe I’m overreacting. Maybe I’m not. Maybe   he and I will be fine! Maybe I will get left. Or even leave him.
    I don’t know what stopped me from leaving him last night. I don’t even know why I wanted to, I feel so lost and scared. A year and almost 6 months is a long time for a 16 year old. Especially considering we are pretty serious.  I hope everything will just get better from here.  I know I can’t leave him. That would be heartbreaking and I don’t know how I would deal with that? 

          Note to self*  love unconditionally, forgive occasionally, and NEVER act on impulse. Unless its to use some under eye concealer and some nice top lid only liquid liner, I’ve heard that makes you look more awake and energized.  Guess I’ll have to try it…

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My lame introduction

I’m Sarah, I’m 16 and I live in a pretty boring city. Yeah, its the “horse capital of the world” but its not special.   I like to take photos and see my friends! I especially like seeing my boyfriend Justin, he’s a 90% sweet and 100% mine. Im bad at introducing myself, so why even bother?

    My life is pretty great, who doesn’t like sitting around, lying in bed, and snuggling with your dog? That’s basically what my summers going to consist of. (And some awesome nights with my friends, some dates with Justin and possibly some crying involved)  Chilling out is fun sometimes, but after a while it gets pretty boring… Next thing I know, I’ll be into some kind of trouble again. Maybe I’ll have some exciting summer drama happen and live through it to tell about it.  Knowing me I might just cause the drama…